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Mayu7Hinamori94
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Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
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I like to write.
I like to draw.
I like to daydream.
I am a perfectionist.
I can be nit picky.
I have a petite anger problem.
I hate to procrastinate.
Overall.... Eh, I'm a decent gal.
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Personas by Mayu7Hinamori94
Personas
"I am you, you are me." "You are  not me, but a part of me."

These two characters are the only ones I seen to relate to the most. Though I based them off of me, throughout the stories and artwork, they seem to take on a life of their own. 
Bottom Left: Mayu Hinamori - She's the main heroine of my ongoing story called "Lazy Days." Age 14 in the beginning. I often use her as my persona for many accounts hence my DA name, Mayu7..... But she's starting to have less similarities towards me, and more of her own (which is a good thing). 

Top Right: Author- The Main Heroine to "Another Story" (yes, that's its name). She's 16-17 at the start. She is a recent persona I developed and the one I can relate to the most, because she and I have the same similarities, but we take on different actions, or have different views (somewhat). I know what you're gonna say, "Oh, she's based off of you so she's gonna be just like you," but when I write her in my stories, she doesnt feel like me. She doesn't act like me in the stories from my perspective. 

Line Art done by me :iconmayu7hinamori94:
Digital Art done by :icontacsayo:
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(It was more like this if you ask me > >Cry forever  or this onion sad. Nope, definitely thisi miss you glomping me )
(Also, this is basically me venting out some frustration, making a confession, and stuff...)

My Winter Break didn't start as grand as I hoped. Last Saturday I gathered the courage to ask a person out. This guy was a friend of mine since high school. We've been like partners, helping each other out with stories and drawings, and other stuff. I always had feelings for him, but I was too nervous to ask in the past, because of some... problems. That night, when everything was supposed to be fun, I asked, if he was interested in dating, and he turned me down. He turned me down in a kind way, by staying beside me, no matter how much I cried on his shoulder. Though despite his kindness, I wanted to hit him, hard. I wanted to call him a "jerk" or an "Asshole," maybe both. But, I just couldn't stop with the tears (pathetic, right?). I went home crying my eyes out, sleeping in and asking myself, "Where did I go wrong?", "What could I had done right?", "Whats wrong with me?" and "Why?"

After this, I began to look back into my past, and see what kind of life I had lived. Denied of getting what I wished, only to see others have it. Forced to see friends and families achieve goals that I wanted to fulfill. I can recall many times, when I had to break a bone or two, just to get the world to look at me, while others just have to show up, and it would seem like the world would applaud them, and reward them for their hard work, silver platter and all. For instance, I had been a shadow to two of my family members: my older brother and my younger cousin. I do love them a lot. However, I realized no matter how hard I struggled, no matter how many fights I had to punch through, I would never get the recognition they had. I would never live up to their level. I was forever branded, ".....'s sister" or "......'s cousin" by common strangers. No one even knew my name.  

Then there are my friends. As much as I love them, I can't stop envying them for what I've mentioned above. I know, everyone keep saying "stop comparing yourself to others" or "they had it rough too, y'know" or "Just be patient, your good luck will eventually happen." It makes me sick to hear those words fall to me again, and again, and again. I have tried my damnest to not worry about others, and think about myself, but where has that gotten me? Where has "kindness" and "patience" given me? Nothing, but heart break, misery and more self-loathing. I am stuck in the corner, being everyone's damn shadow, and never having a voice to call my own. I am tired of it all, being nice all the time, and never be rewarded, or acknowledge for it. When i try to be nice, my own paranoia keeps getting the better of me by proving me wrong. When will it be my turn, when the cosmos decides to stop sh*ting on me? When I'm 50? 70? Dead? Who knows. All I know is that being kind has given me misfortune. So I wonder, what happens when I become the opposite?

A writer once quoted, "The world will end with not a bang, but a whimper." If you ask me, that's how my "world" went after that night... 
  • Mood: Defeated
  • Listening to: Don't Care
  • Reading: Don't Care
  • Watching: Don't Care
  • Playing: Don't Care
  • Eating: Don't Care
  • Drinking: Don't Care
I am back from the dead! Now, onto drawing :D
Yes it is folks, I am free from my finals and I have officially started my winter break. Man, its been forever since I last uploaded something. It feels like its been so long since I have been to my account that everything is gathering dust now lol. It has been a crazy , stressful and anything BUT relaxing week, but I pulled through. Hopefully, with this break, I will be able to complete the following to revive my account:

-More OC pictures
-Holiday themed pictures
-Requests
-Fanart

Season's Greetings to all DA, and I wish for everyone a relaxing holiday ;)
  • Listening to: My Demons by Starset
  • Reading: Das Mervin Reads
  • Watching: Full Metal Alchemist
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Asian Food
  • Drinking: Mt. Dew White Out
(It was more like this if you ask me > >Cry forever  or this onion sad. Nope, definitely thisi miss you glomping me )
(Also, this is basically me venting out some frustration, making a confession, and stuff...)

My Winter Break didn't start as grand as I hoped. Last Saturday I gathered the courage to ask a person out. This guy was a friend of mine since high school. We've been like partners, helping each other out with stories and drawings, and other stuff. I always had feelings for him, but I was too nervous to ask in the past, because of some... problems. That night, when everything was supposed to be fun, I asked, if he was interested in dating, and he turned me down. He turned me down in a kind way, by staying beside me, no matter how much I cried on his shoulder. Though despite his kindness, I wanted to hit him, hard. I wanted to call him a "jerk" or an "Asshole," maybe both. But, I just couldn't stop with the tears (pathetic, right?). I went home crying my eyes out, sleeping in and asking myself, "Where did I go wrong?", "What could I had done right?", "Whats wrong with me?" and "Why?"

After this, I began to look back into my past, and see what kind of life I had lived. Denied of getting what I wished, only to see others have it. Forced to see friends and families achieve goals that I wanted to fulfill. I can recall many times, when I had to break a bone or two, just to get the world to look at me, while others just have to show up, and it would seem like the world would applaud them, and reward them for their hard work, silver platter and all. For instance, I had been a shadow to two of my family members: my older brother and my younger cousin. I do love them a lot. However, I realized no matter how hard I struggled, no matter how many fights I had to punch through, I would never get the recognition they had. I would never live up to their level. I was forever branded, ".....'s sister" or "......'s cousin" by common strangers. No one even knew my name.  

Then there are my friends. As much as I love them, I can't stop envying them for what I've mentioned above. I know, everyone keep saying "stop comparing yourself to others" or "they had it rough too, y'know" or "Just be patient, your good luck will eventually happen." It makes me sick to hear those words fall to me again, and again, and again. I have tried my damnest to not worry about others, and think about myself, but where has that gotten me? Where has "kindness" and "patience" given me? Nothing, but heart break, misery and more self-loathing. I am stuck in the corner, being everyone's damn shadow, and never having a voice to call my own. I am tired of it all, being nice all the time, and never be rewarded, or acknowledge for it. When i try to be nice, my own paranoia keeps getting the better of me by proving me wrong. When will it be my turn, when the cosmos decides to stop sh*ting on me? When I'm 50? 70? Dead? Who knows. All I know is that being kind has given me misfortune. So I wonder, what happens when I become the opposite?

A writer once quoted, "The world will end with not a bang, but a whimper." If you ask me, that's how my "world" went after that night... 
  • Mood: Defeated
  • Listening to: Don't Care
  • Reading: Don't Care
  • Watching: Don't Care
  • Playing: Don't Care
  • Eating: Don't Care
  • Drinking: Don't Care

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LegendaryEon Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2014  Professional Artist
Hi, Author. How are you doing?
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Mayu7Hinamori94 Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
i AM DOING JUST FINE. (woops, had the cap lock on). I'm alright. I wrote in my journal that I finished my final so I'm just recooperating. What's up?
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LegendaryEon Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2014  Professional Artist
Well, I'm doing good too. Had a bit of bad weather for a couple of weeks. We had thunderstorms, and boy, did I hate them. But they're going away now, thank goodness. I also sent in some new pictures too.
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Mayu7Hinamori94 Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah, I read about that in your journal.That sounds really crazy. I hate thunderstorms too, but I had started to get an interest with watching lightning. It's a good thing they are going away. 
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Thelunarwriter Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks so much for the fav :D
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Fameisdead Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the fav!!! :3 I appreciate it!!!
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DinoLover09 Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday!!! :boogie:
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LegendaryEon Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2014  Professional Artist
Happy Birthday! :cake: :cuddle:
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Thanks for faving! Emote Cuddle Love 
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Thanks a lot for the fav by the way ! c:
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